Last-Ditch Effort

I have once again hit the bottom. I've dropped so low this last week into depression and into discouragement about my inability to lose weight that last Thursday┬áI again found myself on my knees begging God for help. Why can't I feel happy? And why can't I get healthy? That same day I happened to…

Establishing a Baseline

Well, I did it! I actually did the triathlon I was aiming to do. After being sick for an entire month, I didn't know if I would be able to manage it, but a few days before the event, I finally signed up for it, determined to make it happen. I then proceeded to binge…

Being Okay

I am currently the heaviest I have ever been in my entire life, except at the end of my last pregnancy. This is very difficult for me to deal with because for so many years I have dreamed of being a competitive athlete in running or triathlon or both. I feel like I'm an athlete…

Triathlon Training and Walls

A couple of months ago I decided I wanted to start training for a triathlon again. I have done a few triathlons in the past, but it's been a few years now since doing any. However, I've always had it in the back of my mind to do an Ironman triathlon sometime in my life.…

A New, Imperfect Beginning

I'm not sure how to start this, but I feel the need to share my journey, even if nobody cares to read it, because it might help me find my way to healing. So I'm just going to forge ahead and try to stop being afraid of the many mistakes I'm going to make along…

Priorities

Today, instead of being "responsible" and doing laundry, etc. I spent a significant portion of my usual house-cleaning time playing with my children instead. I had so much fun while I was playing with them. But now, at the end of the day, I feel discouraged that my house is such a mess. Shouldn't I…

Shattered Dreams

My mom and sister decided to host a girls night for their little granddaughters who live nearby. It was planned for last night, and my little 5-year-old, Anna has been soooo excited about it. Every single day for at least a week, she has been saying, "I can't wait for Friday! Girls night!" "Only 3…

St. Patrick’s Day Surprises

When I was younger, I never imagined the stress that could come from a daughter who doesn't happen to own a green shirt! Can you believe it? Not a one. My little 5-year-old is EXTREMELY picky when it comes to clothing. It has to feel just right or she will refuse to wear it, to…

Proud Mommy

Last week in fast and testimony meeting, 7-year-old Cameron and 5-year-old Anna both decided to bear their testimonies for the first time in church without anyone else pushing them to do it. I unfortunately was home with sick little ones, so I didn't get to hear them. (But that's probably for the best because I…